I never thought I’d find myself in this position, but here I am. A single mother with two small children, no job, no car and relying solely on government assistance and my wonderful brother who took us in when he certainly didn’t have to.
I am hoping by writing this blog I can inspire others like myself by chronicling my daily search for not only a job and a car but for the life I have somehow lost. Each day I spend hours on the computer sending resumes and hoping for the best. I know if I have faith in myself that something will come to me. I save all the money that I get in hopes to find a reliable vehicle so that I am able to free myself from this apartment that has become a prison to me.
It amazes me everyday how easy it was to lose everything I had worked for my entire life. I was an office manager and owned my own business for many years and yet somehow I lost it all. Lost may not be the right word…perhaps it’s still there, just hidden under the mounds and piles of things that I must overcome to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I can do it, but after so long I have become afraid of failure and life in general. It will take hard work and strength to overcome but I was a strong independent woman before and I will be again.
Today I will send more resumes and hope with all my heart that someone will see the potential I possess. I will spend time with my children who are now 3 and 1 and enjoy the time that I know will pass to quickly. They are my greatest accomplishment and yet they hold me back from a life I want and need. I don’t resent them, please don’t misunderstand…I want to do everything I can to make sure they have everything they need and want, but in order to do that I must find a job that will allow me to do this. I have an interview tomorrow and look forward to it, hoping that it is something that will give the opportunity I so desire. Wish me luck!
So, until next time dear readers, I will strive to achieve all these things I want so badly and I do hope that I will somehow inspire someone out there to do the same.