Hello world!

August 27, 2009

I never thought I’d find myself in this position, but here I am.  A single mother with two small children, no job, no car and relying solely on government assistance and my wonderful brother who took us in when he certainly didn’t have to.

I am hoping by writing this blog I can inspire others like myself by chronicling my daily search for not only a job and a car but for the life I have somehow lost.  Each day I spend hours on the computer sending resumes and hoping for the best.  I know if I have faith in myself that something will come to me.  I save all the money that I get in hopes to find a reliable vehicle so that I am able to free myself from this apartment that has become a prison to me.

It amazes me everyday how easy it was to lose everything I had worked for my entire life.   I was an office manager and owned my own business for many years and yet somehow I lost it all.  Lost may not be the right word…perhaps it’s still there, just hidden under the mounds and piles of things that I must overcome to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I know I can do it, but after so long I have become afraid of failure and life in general.  It will take hard work and strength to overcome but I was a strong independent woman before and I will be again.

Today I will send more resumes and hope with all my heart that someone will see the potential I possess.  I will spend time with my children who are now 3 and 1 and enjoy the time that I know will pass to quickly.  They are my greatest accomplishment and yet  they hold me back from a life I want and need.  I don’t resent them, please don’t misunderstand…I want to do everything I can to make sure they have everything they need and want, but in order to do that I must find a job that will allow me to do this.  I have an interview tomorrow and look forward to it, hoping that it is something that will give the opportunity I so desire.  Wish me luck!

So, until next time dear readers, I will strive to achieve all these things I want so badly and I do hope that I will somehow inspire someone out there to do the same.